Hammie please be okay...

Hammie is acting strange today... she was fine earlier but up until an hour ago she started walking around in circles with her eyes still closed... I watched her, held her, tried to fix whatever was wrong but still she'd walk around in circles. It looks as if her poo is stuck inside of her and dried up. I could have taken better care of her. I should have brought her to the vet while I still had the chance... and now she's laying down, she's still breathing but she's not moving at all... just laying there... I told her I love her & she'll always be my princess... and that she's strong & all the stuff she got over to prove to Mommy & Daddy that she's a survivor. Deep down inside I knew this was gonna happen, I thought I was prepared for it... but I was wrong. I've been crying for the passed hour & I cant stop. I just want for her to be okay so bad... her eyes arent even open... they opened for a split second & she closed them again... her ears are half way up... I miss how alert she use to be...

I want the energy filled, happy, silly little baby girl I know... the one I'd go talk to & she'd listen & all the little things she did that made me smile. I wanna still give her kisses on the forehead & the cheeks... and on her tummy while she struggled to kick me off of her.. play the catching game with her ear... I know she can tell Mommy's sad, but how can Mommy be happy when she's about to lose her baby?

Its stilly right? A twenty year old crying over her dying hamster... but in my whole lifetime to raising hamsters, none of them [ okay maybe one ] have touched me the way she did.

She's not just a pet, she's not just a hamster... she's my baby, my princess... she's my friend....

I love you babygirl... please be okay... please...



[ edit @ 11:30 PM ]

She moved back to her bed on her own! I have hope she'll be okay...

She kept walking in circles earlier and falling over.... her eyes werent even open... I'm glad she made it to her bed!

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