Update.

I cant sleep, so yeah here's an update..

She made her bed & she's eating right now... I dont want to have too much hope she'll be okay, but she's a survivor... and whatever happens I hope she knows Mommy & Daddy love her & are happy to have had her in their lives...

We're taking her to the vet afterschool today... so hold on Hammmiiiiieeeee!! Mommy & Daddy are takin you to the doctor! Then you'll be okay & be the little ball of energy you always were =).


[ edit @ 5:16 PM ]

This morning she wouldnt let me hold her... she'd scream & jump out of my hands =( I fed her the peanut she was trying to eat & had a hard time getting her back in her cage so I scooped her up in her ball & placed it in the cage... she wouldnt come out [ her eyes were still closed too ], she'd just walk more into the ball like she wanted to play. Poor baby, I feel bad for not letting her out of her cage while she was still healthy enough to play... I thought she needed her rest since she gave birth... the communities I asked about it in said that they take a few days to rest. But it made me really happy when she'd look out looking for me...

I was a bit scared to leave her while I was at school & all I could think about was getting home to her. I set an appointment with a vet out here [ it cost $20 more then the one we took Flix to but I really needed to take her ] before I left for school. So we were about an hour early. We bought her this little carry cage & some disinfectent to clean the ball so we could put Flix in there...

It was a bit hard to get her in the carrier. Daddy struggled to get her to come out, but she wouldnt move much. She did start bathing & she fell over... I wish she would open her eyes. We finally got her in, and took her to the vet.

The person who took us to the room took her weight... 55 grams. She's so tiny... then we waited, I made sure she knew we were there with her since she was put in a new place without warning. She was crawling around the food bowl tryin to keep warm I guess, she was shivering in the waiting room & I think Klennex is bad for them so I couldnt keep her warm =(.

The doctor finally came in to see her & did a check up that I was pleased with. She checked her heart beat, examined her tail / butt, checked her fur & everything. She told us some information about her, what's wrong, how it could have happened & since eating her babies [ who were infected with whatever she had ] incresed her infection... I didnt think they could stack like that...

Anyway, we let them keep her for now to warm her up & give her medicine since I dont have anything that would keep her warm here & I'd rather have professional's deal with it since I wouldnt know exactly what I'm doing. We're gonna go back there tonight to check on her. And if she's doing okay but still needs some warming up, keep her there over night. The vet was telling us that she's really really sick & she has a 50/50 chance... which really is pretty obvious, it was just that since it was confirmed made me feel a little hopeless...

I really hope she pulls through & makes it. I miss her so much. I'll keep this updated on what happens.. not so much for telling who ever know's about this journal, but more because this journal is made to keep record of both Crimson & Flix for me & Martin's benifit...

Get better babygirl... me, Daddy & Flix are hoping for you to come back to us... we love you princess.

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