Til next time Hammie baby...

Today... we buried Hammie baby... we bought a box for her & wrote all over it & put stickers on it plus we put pictures of us [ with letters on the back of each of them from both of us ], her favorite treats, her favorite food, some bedding, toilet paper & "mommy and daddy are always with you, dont worry!" on the inside... we took pictures of everything so I'll post them probably tomorrow. We buried her in my favorite corner & had a cross for her & everything that says "RIP Crimson". We tried really hard not to cry cause I didnt want her last image of Mommy & Daddy to be crying.

We spent a lot of time talking to her before we buried her. It was hard to let her go for good.. it was hard to take her out of my room & to never see her again. Even now I wanna dig her up & put her back & just know she's safe and warm... even if she isnt here anymore. I just want her to physically be here in some sort of way. I miss her so very much already. And I know I cant cry forever, its just hard not to... she was the best little hammie ever...

Me & Daddy spent a lot of time talking about her, reminiscing about her... and just missing her. I'm glad that she has a nice little room now. I hope she's not scared there. I hope she's happy & healthy. We tried the best we could babygirl, and I know you tried your best for us too. I just wish we could have saved you in time... but you taught Daddy a good lesson, and you brought us so much happiness... I know I'm asking too much of you by saying I wish you were still here... but I am very thankful that you came home last night. I'm so very thankful that you fought another day to be with us. And that's all I could ask for, that you came home last night.

It feels so empty here with out you... me & Daddy both feel like we lost a part of ourselves... but you lived a good life... the best life a hamster could ever live huh babygirl? We took you places, bought you things, you had a lot of friends.. we tried to make you happy the best we could. We love you so very much princess. I just miss your beautiful red eyes... and all the things you did to make me laugh when I was mad at Daddy.

But you know what baby? I dont think you have to worry about Mommy & Daddy fighting any time soon, you brought us closer together baby. And I know you didnt like seeing us fight. You wanted us to be happy just like we wanted you to be happy right? So we could be a happy family. Daddy misses you babygirl. And Mommy does too. Flix does also... did you read all the letters we wrote you? We love you princess... we wont forget about you either k? Dont worry, you'll always be our baby.

No goodbyes, this isnt goodbye... its til next time babygirl. Good Night.



Flixie was being weird today... I think he misses her too... it just seems so incomplete seeing him & not her....